Silencing Imposter Syndrome
As I crossed the finish line for my first major podium finish after a wet and wild day at IRONMAN 70.3 Memphis last October, I was flooded with multiple emotions.
The major one: relief. Then, fleeting happiness. And finally, dissatisfaction with a side of embarrassment.
In an event that was broadcast live on IRONMAN NOW for thousands to see - I, a rookie long course pro, was not afraid to stick my nose in the middle of a race with two of the best female triathletes in the world: Ellie Salthouse and Jackie Hering. I exited the swim with Ellie and traded pulls with Jackie during the second half of the bike before finishing third on the day.
To the vast majority of those watching the live stream, I was a complete nobody, likely performing above anyone’s expectations for someone who, up to this point, had flown completely under the radar. But the result never tells the full story, and what people couldn’t see on screen is the two years of relentless hard work I put in on the swim and bike when I couldn’t run due to a series of stress fractures in my left foot. I and those close to me knew what I was capable of: I expected to be highly competitive on the swim and bike in any race, and in the right race, I fully expected to be fighting for a podium.
But what I didn’t expect was the anticlimactic feeling when I crossed the line that day in Memphis...
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The major one: relief. Then, fleeting happiness. And finally, dissatisfaction with a side of embarrassment.
In an event that was broadcast live on IRONMAN NOW for thousands to see - I, a rookie long course pro, was not afraid to stick my nose in the middle of a race with two of the best female triathletes in the world: Ellie Salthouse and Jackie Hering. I exited the swim with Ellie and traded pulls with Jackie during the second half of the bike before finishing third on the day.
To the vast majority of those watching the live stream, I was a complete nobody, likely performing above anyone’s expectations for someone who, up to this point, had flown completely under the radar. But the result never tells the full story, and what people couldn’t see on screen is the two years of relentless hard work I put in on the swim and bike when I couldn’t run due to a series of stress fractures in my left foot. I and those close to me knew what I was capable of: I expected to be highly competitive on the swim and bike in any race, and in the right race, I fully expected to be fighting for a podium.
But what I didn’t expect was the anticlimactic feeling when I crossed the line that day in Memphis...
Photo Credit: Andrew Schiff
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